As I Walked Out One Evening

"O look, look in the mirror,
        O look in your distress;
Life remains a blessing
        Although you cannot bless.

"O stand, stand at the window
        As the tears scald and start;
You shall love your crooked neighbour
        With your crooked heart."

--"As I WAlked Out One Evening" by  W. H. Auden

The Old Woman

The old blind woman (who is a patient) eats with her hands, for everything. She was licking her finger after diving into a container of pudding.

I can't stand to watch her move through her huge plate of food.

She also pretends to be deaf. The nurses will come up to her, and she'll ignore them.

She's usually the only other person besides me who paces up and down the hallway for exercise.

I have to avoid her and her stick, which is painted red on the bottom half. 

Questions, Part II

"How's your depression?" The nurses will ask.

I always answer the same. "It's a seven."

Finally, I got pissed at one of them--because she kept asking over just a few hours from the last time. "Why would it have changed?!"

In Hell

"Fathers and teachers, I ponder 'What is hell?' I maintain that it is the suffering of being unable to love."

--pg. 299 of The Brothers Karamazov by Dostoevsky

Woe

"No one is wise from another man's woe."

--The Brothers Karamazov by Dostoevsky, pg. 286

The Man With Boots

The man with the boots said during OT group yesterday that he made Carlos Santana cry once with his music.

He said that he hears music in his head all the time.

He drew a picture with notes on it.

The Perv

"Please keep yours hands to yourself," the psychologist says during group.

I see she is looking over towards me.

The gentleman sitting next to me in the circle is trying to casually touch my arm by pretending to stretch.

He says later during our hour, "I like to flirt with women..."