Life Frustation

"Life must be frustrating for you," the Advisor comments.

Currently, yes. What are my options? Reduced function or obsession with jumping off of a bridge?

I Can't Take it, Part II

"You think you can just wish me away, that's not how it works."

--Nora

I Can't Take It

"You can't control me, Lace, I'm a voice in your fucking head."

--Nora

Future

I don't want to die, but suicide is the only future I see for myself.

Any Less Alone

"I regard their more conventional domestic lives with the same sort of ambivalence. Like everyone, I’ve seen some marriages in which I would discreetly hang myself within 12 hours, but others have given me cause to envy their intimacy, loyalty, and irreplaceable decades of invested history. [Note to all my married friends: your marriage is one of the latter.] Though one of those friends cautioned me against idealizing: 'It’s not as if being married means you’re any less alone.' "

--Tim Kreider

Cycle of Fear

"It’s more like the view from the top of the Empire State Building, of people as infinitesimal dots circulating ceaselessly through a grid. Eventually we have to descend back to street level, rejoin the milling mass and take up our lives; you lock up your bike and become hostage to the hours again. But it’s at those moments that I become briefly conscious of what I actually am — a fleeting entity stripped of ego and history in an evanescent present, like a man running in frames of celluloid, his consciousness flickering from one instant to the next."
--Tim Kreider

Real Life

"Real life, in my experience, is not rife with epiphanies, let alone lessons; what little we learn tends to come exactly too late, gets contradicted by the next blunder, or is immediately forgotten and has to be learned all over again. More and more, the only things that seem to me worth writing about are the ones I don’t understand. Sometimes the most honest and helpful thing a writer can do is to acknowledge that some problems are insoluble, that life is hard and there aren’t going to be any answers, that he’s just as screwed-up and clueless as the rest of us. Or I don’t know, maybe it’s just me."
--Tim Kreider