I was out with Lucky, at a bar, and my cell phone rang. It was Joseph. I turn off the ringer.
"Who was that?" Lucky asks.
"Joseph, he's an ex," I say.
"Oh, like me."
"No, not like you," I reply.
Monday, December 23, 2013
Sunday, December 22, 2013
Saturday, December 21, 2013
Blurb
"But I'm here to apologize for the hurt I've caused you, in your life."
--blurb from the latest email I wrote Morpheus
Friday, December 20, 2013
A Note on Beck
Beck is out on the front porch, squeaking her ball, completely happy.
Don't you wish you had a ball to squeak?
Don't you wish you had a ball to squeak?
Tuesday, December 17, 2013
GG
The bottle of Grey Goose is empty, but still on the counter, in the corner.
I don't know what we're hoping, that it will refill itself in the middle of the night?
Miracles of miracles?
I don't know what we're hoping, that it will refill itself in the middle of the night?
Miracles of miracles?
Friday, December 13, 2013
Fun and GAmes
"I wouldn’t use those words, but let’s be real, I worked with girls with
trust funds who were doing it for, I don’t know, their own sense of
gritty realism and I think they needed to get lives."
Because you can't strip, I don't know, for fun and domination, for the constant reinforcement of your sexual prowess, for beauty and for games.
Yeah--it's for fun.
--Red, Tits and Sass
Because you can't strip, I don't know, for fun and domination, for the constant reinforcement of your sexual prowess, for beauty and for games.
Yeah--it's for fun.
--Red, Tits and Sass
Drunk Emails
The therapist asked what was said in the drunk emails to Morpheus.
"Do you really want to know?" I said.
She nodded.
"Do you really want to know?" I said.
She nodded.
Compartmentalization While Stripping
"Compartmentalization is one thing, but inventing a whole other
personality to avoid accountability for what one does while stripping is
ludicrous."
--Caty, on Tits and Sass
--Caty, on Tits and Sass
Sub-clinical Bulimia
My eating habits have been wacky. STarving myself one day. Overeating the next. Sub-clinical bulimia.
Losing and gaining the same three pounds.
I hate it. I hate eating as much as I hate being hungry.
Losing and gaining the same three pounds.
I hate it. I hate eating as much as I hate being hungry.
About Morpheus
"I wonder if, not that you're OVER him, but if you're ready to start moving on?"
--Rosa in an email, referring to Morpheus
--Rosa in an email, referring to Morpheus
Tuesday, December 10, 2013
More From the Therapist
"What makes you depressed?" My therapist says, "That you can't have him [Morpheus]?...I'm just throwing that out there."
Monday, December 9, 2013
TXT-message Conversation
This is from a TXT-message conversation I had yesterday with a person in G2P at Stanford University hospital, which is their psych unit:
"I know I should have just carried out the [suicide] plan I had today. Than [sic] I would be dead right now and I would be happy."
My response: "You can't be dead and happy. There's just dead."
"I know I should have just carried out the [suicide] plan I had today. Than [sic] I would be dead right now and I would be happy."
My response: "You can't be dead and happy. There's just dead."
Thursday, December 5, 2013
Wednesday, December 4, 2013
What's Cool
My therapist asked, since I've been feeling better, if I've asked friends out, for lunch or coffee, or just a meet in town.
Initially, I said no. I spend the vast majority of my days (and evenings/nights) at home, doing laundry and the dishes. Because I'm wild like that. But then I remembered--yes, I asked the Advisor out for a beer.
"Like a date?" She replied.
No! Which I thought was funny. So, then I had to explain the over ten year relationship I've had with a man who is older than my (step)father. How the Advisor has always been there for me, in sickness and in health.
"He has been a major part of your life," she said.
Yes. Of course, she wanted to know what his response was to my invitation.
He said yes, after the quarter was over at the University, he would hang out with me.
Which I think is cool.
Initially, I said no. I spend the vast majority of my days (and evenings/nights) at home, doing laundry and the dishes. Because I'm wild like that. But then I remembered--yes, I asked the Advisor out for a beer.
"Like a date?" She replied.
No! Which I thought was funny. So, then I had to explain the over ten year relationship I've had with a man who is older than my (step)father. How the Advisor has always been there for me, in sickness and in health.
"He has been a major part of your life," she said.
Yes. Of course, she wanted to know what his response was to my invitation.
He said yes, after the quarter was over at the University, he would hang out with me.
Which I think is cool.
Sunday, December 1, 2013
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