Grandmother's Death

"Your grandmother did die by suicide, she just didn't do it with poison," my mother says to me after I tell her about a nightmare I had.

In the nightmare, my mother comes up to me about news from the coroner, who said that grandmother's death was ruled a suicide by intentional poisoning. In the dream, I was hysterical, and turned violent. I trashed the bar I was in, and got arrested. I kept saying that it was my fault because I didn't go visit her often enough.