Hidden in these drafts (among other bits of narrative) at PRivate Whore HYsteria is most of the untold story between Hades and myself that I previously didn't want to reveal because I was afraid of what he might say or do in retaliation. However, it's been four years, and I think it's interesting to look back at myself from that period.
I drank too much.
I partied too much. I make references to men who I don't even remember.
I squandered away my financial aid at bars on Grey Goose and hamburgers. I showed up to classes, but that was it. I flunked my Fall Quarter.
I was manic and out of control. The only thing I could do, it seems, was write. I probably wrote more during October of 2009 than any other period in my life. I wrote about Hades, but also about Iago and the WRiter Ex-boyfriend and about Lucky.
Currently, the only thing I regret is ruining my chances at the University. I managed to get out of those F's because I have a disability (I was manic throughout the summer and the fall), and I received medical W's; however, I no longer qualify for financial aid because I did not show academic progress (you do have to pass some classes). I wasted a real opportunity to graduate and advance in life.
I will continue to post from the past as I see fit.
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